Earlier today I trained with the team and then went for a boat ride to the other side of the harbour just to clear my mind. The nerves are starting to set in more than I thought they would but training today felt a lot better for me than yesterday.
Tonight is like Christmas Eve for me. You know that feeling of December 24th when you are exhausted from all the preparation for the last few months getting ready for the big day making sure that everything will be perfect, and the anticipation of what might be magical under the Christmas tree the next morning?
Well that is how I’m feeling tonight. I have no idea what to expect tomorrow. I’m obviously hoping for that perfect gift but I might also get that toy that is broken or the sweater that doesn’t fit 🙁
Every competitor has to be prepared to be completely eliminated in 4 minutes with a sudden death round in sparring or a couple minutes in patterns. But every competitor has the dream of standing on the podium hearing their national anthem and having the title of World Champion. Such a high title comes with as much risk and sacrifice. If it’s not worth achieving it’s not worth working for. There are so many factors to consider. You have the luck of the draw, judges, and how you compete on any given day. We are all entering equally and we all want the same end result – A gold medal!
I want to thank everyone again for all their support both financially and emotionally through this long journey to get me to the world stage. I certainly can’t promise you a gold medal or any medal for that matter but I can promise you that I’ve done everything that I possibly can to prepare myself for this event both physically and mentally. I have appreciated all the countless hours of amazing coaching, driving me to and from training, waiting while I train, introducing me to the best coaches and training buddies possible, the media and press support and the endless hours of pep talks from coaches, family and friends. I also really appreciate my soccer team being so patient with me not playing in the games through the winter and not going to Dallas with them so I could come to New Zealand.
I almost don’t want today to end since I know I will feel a bit lost when it’s over but at the same time I can’t wait to get into the arena and show the world what I can do. Whatever is meant to be will be and I’ll just have to accept the results whatever they are.
Wish me luck and thanks again everyone for your support. You all got me here!!!! Off to bed.